2 Months Later

Well hello again. No, I haven't fallen off the face of the earth....just haven't posted. Even now, it's really hard for me to sit down and try to figure out what to say after so long. The past 2 months have been pretty normal around here.....ups and downs all around.
This past Friday was one of extreme emotion for me. I went to the school to register Emma for Kindergarten. Such an extreme wave of sadness, failure and nausea came over me. I literally cried all morning. I haven't with all honesty given up on the idea of homeschooling yet, but I have accepted the possibility that she may be going to public school unless something huge happens in the next couple of months to prevent it. I just HAVE to trust the Lord....to rely on Him...to put my confidence in Him. I have to focus my mind and heart on Him and not listen to the lies of the devil at this point....it's a struggle to not only avoid hearing those lies but to avoid believing them as well. I know the Lord is trying to teach me something. What?...you might ask....I have no idea. Maybe it is just to trust in Him. I feel like I need a pep rally from Beth Moore on believing God! :) She always fires me up!
My heart has been in so much turmoil lately...part of it has been the issue with Emma and school and the other just some personal things. I wish I could explain it so you don't all think I'm a lunatic. I need a new Bible study I think. I've been thinking about "A Woman's Heart" by Beth. I just need to do it.
Anyway, I am going to try to post more often. Thanks for being so faithful to check the blog. I will try to get some newer pictures up of the girls. They are growing SO fast.