My All in All

After my post yesterday, the war was on. I will first say that I'm not sure where the tests originated. I'm not sure if the Lord was just testing me or if satan himself approached the Lord for permission to battle me. Nonetheless, I battled.

My first battle was not really being sure who would keep my kids. I had 2 options, but keeping them was not convenient for either one of them. So, I felt bad about having to put them out. Then, I realized Emma wasn't feeling well. She was running a low grade fever, almost 101, so I gave her some Motrin. I still thought...ok...I can handle this even though I became quite emotional. My supper took forever to cook. I told you about Don's interview, so I was trying to hurry so he wouldn't be late. Chloe nor Emma would eat dinner. Emma, I understood...after all, she wasn't feeling well. As Don got ready for work, his human resources mgr. called and wondered where he was. He apparently had a 4:30 interview as well...not just a 5:30 interview. He was devastated as you can imagine. He left upset....I was more upset.
As I walked in the house, the Lord brought this verse to my mind...
"Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee." Isaiah 26:3
So, I tried to rest in that thought. I came in. Emma got some tea to drink. Not 5 minutes later, she proceeds to throw up "orange" (probably Motrin & tea mixed...yuck!) all over my light tan carpet. Ok...so now what. I still had my Bible study at 7:15. No one wants to watch a sick child....I didn't want to leave her sick. Not to mention I couldn't get the stain out of my carpet. After my emotional break-down, I prayed for a word from the Lord. This is what He gave me...
"... Believe ye that I am able to do this?...According to your faith be it unto you." Matthew 9:28-29
Both of these statements were said by Jesus. They were for me, because He seemed to keep to asking me, "are you going to believe me or not?" I did believe Him, and asked Jesus to please heal her with no more throwing up so I could still go to my Bible study.

God is so faithful. Even after all that, He still made Himself real to me. I guess He must have thought I needed some "examples" for my study. :)

Why do we doubt Him? He has proven Himself to us...to me...time after time. Because He is all knowing, He already knows our struggles...our doubts....our insecurities. This morning I was reading and studying Ephesians 1:11-23. This has so many little nuggets in it. But one that I wanted to point out is from vs. 19. He tells us that He wants us to know "...what is the exceeding greatness of his power to us-ward who believe...". This power is compared to the power He had when Christ was raised from the dead. When we believe a promise God has given us, we have greatness of His power. That should be encouraging.

Then in vs. 22 (NIV) it says..."And God placed all things under his feet...". What does all mean? ALL. He is Lord over ALL. When you step on things, they are not moving unless you pick up your feet. All includes me. When I'm put under pressure, God will not let me fall. He has me under His foot...keeping me within His reach. I'll never get too far from Him.

Thank You Lord for being my ALL.