Absent-minded

I feel quite absent-minded on a regular basis. Honestly. If I don't write something down, poof...there it goes, right out the window. And sometimes it goes out the window even if I do write it down. Go figure!
That's kinda how I feel with my devotions. Right now, I'm struggling with living out the Word of God. I have my quiet time with the Lord, but when I close my Bible, it's like before...POOF...out the window. I can't seem to recall what God was speaking to me about. I hate that. I want so much to remain in the Spirit, to think on His promptings, to dwell in His truths and to snack on His Bread all day long. But I can't seem to get past myself. I, all too often, stand in the way of the Lord. I'm learning that my quiet time is to be more than what it has been. To be in a relationship with someone, you long to know all there is to know about that person...you long to talk to that person on a regular, frequent basis. The more I know God and the more I know about God, the more I'll be like Him. But you know what...with great knowledge comes great responsibility (I have no idea where I heard that...it could even be a verse somewhere). Therefore, the more we come to know Him, the more that is required of us...the more we are responsible for. It seems that the more I've come to know about my Lord, the more He's allowed testing in that area, to continue fashioning me into that pot He wants me to be to be able to carry out the purpose for which He placed me here.
Sorry I've been all over the place tonight...just typing my heart.

Father, I love what I'm learning about You. I love the fact that just like with Abraham You have the power to do what You have promised. I love that I can depend on You for all I need...that no matter how far I run, you still pursue me. Lord, thank You so much for Your grace. Thank You that You're not done with me yet.

Romans 4:16-24
"Therefore, the promise comes by faith (or believing), so that it may be by grace and may be guaranteed to all Abraham's offspring—not only to those who are of the law but also to those who are of the faith of Abraham. He is the father of us all. As it is written: 'I have made you a father of many nations.' He is our father in the sight of God, in whom he believed—the God who gives life to the dead and calls things that are not as though they were.
Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, 'So shall your offspring be.' Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead—since he was about a hundred years old—and that Sarah's womb was also dead. Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. This is why 'it was credited to him as righteousness.' The words 'it was credited to him' were written not for him alone, but also for us, to whom God will credit righteousness—for us who believe in him who raised Jesus our Lord from the dead."